UnFIT

I am (my heart that is) not as cute as I thought it was, spiritually. As a matter of fact, it is FFFAAAAARRRRR from cute. How wretched is this flesh of mine! It is indeed true, that the LORD alone is God! He is MARVELOUS in ALL His ways and thoughts!

Me? Mannnnn! I battle with being FULL of IT, you hear me? Full of SELF. Full of SELFISH thoughts of SELFISH gains. 

I  naturally and without Filter (Holy Spirit) am:

selfish

stubborn

arrogant

lustful

mean

hostile

PRIDEFUL

have narcissistic tendencies

                                  Ah, Sovereign LORD! 

You are ALWAYS willing and ready to receive me and teach me MORE...and to LOVE ME EVEN MORE RECKLESSLY!

LORD, left alone, I am UNfit for Your Kingdom and it's Work. But, 

YOU Shower Me with Your UNENDING MERCY and 

                  YOU Clothe me in Your AMAZING GRACE! 

It is YOU who makes ALL things Happen- YOU are the FUEL & the OIL. 

     You are my Enabler. 

You are my CO-Dependent Relationship.

YOU are my [emotional, physical and spiritual] CARETAKER. YOU keep me going. I NEED YOU to survive. I need You to walk with me through my ugliness. You require that I know that I cannot do anything without You. I need You. 

You are my Source of life.

You, THEE Sustainer.